Last night as I lay between being awake and slumber I received a very strong message.

Focus on what you have. 

It just kept repeating over and over, and I knew exactly what it meant.

I am a spiritual seeker and for quite some time now, I’ve been receiving the message to stop seeking. However, obviously since I’m still graciously being sent the same message in different ways, I haven’t quite got it. I’m struggling with finding a balance between my hunger for more, and letting it all go so I can discover truth within.

It seems to be coming to a head as yesterday in my meditation I had a very frustrating experience. I could tell I was pushing, trying and controlling. Wanting connections, seeking bliss, pushing for insight. And they pulled back. They let me sit in my own self created anguish, and boy it was frustrating.

Then right at the end, as I was coming out I witnessed a small round ball of light just sitting there inside of my chest. I couldn’t overly feel it, I just gained an awareness of it.

And it was as if it was crying out for me to sit with it. Not go into it, not expand it. Just sit with it.

So that is where I’m at. It’s hard to not push forward, but the messages are clear.

Focus on what you have.

What are you overlooking?

What would happen if you ceased to push forward for one day, one hour or even one minute?

Can we ever truly let go? 

Graciously yours,

Sharon