Has the question ever crossed your mind?

It crosses my mind all the time, and I often wonder how we can go about our day as though everything normal when this question is still unanswered.

What’s the point if we don’t know what the point is?

How can we get up each day and go to work, pay the bills, be a good person and for what? I can’t think about it too hard otherwise my head hurts and I’m left feeling down.

And don’t get me wrong, I’ve thought I’ve found my purpose before, but as the years progress and hopefully so too does my wisdom, life purpose can sometimes get mixed up between something we do while we’re here that makes us feel good and helps people….

Compared with the real question; why the hell are we all here? Not individually, but collectively. I’m not talking about each person’s perceived mission, I’m talking about why billions of us are milling around picking fights with each other and pretending we’ve got it all worked out, when we actually don’t have a bloody clue.

Some people think their purpose is to have children. And I can see how they’ve reached that conclusion. I think that one is about love. We like to think we’ve experienced love but many people haven’t at all. And certainly not unconditional love. So we think having children will invite an experience of greater love into our lives – which surely will bring feelings of fulfillment and YES our life purpose!

But do we really think we’re all here to just create more of ourselves, experience some kind of love, and then just roll the question down to the next generation? That feels a little on repeat for my liking.

But the answer that I’ve stumbled upon in recent years – which so far in my journey, is the only answer which makes any bloody sense to me however mind bending it is; is that we’re not really here.

I know I know, crazy right?

But a while back I had a dream that was so vivid, I was left feeling embarrassed for myself because of it. Although I know feeling embarrassed for myself wasn’t the purpose of the dream, the real purpose I think, was enlightenment.

I was laying on my bed asleep, dreaming I was having a fight with someone. I remember feeling so angry at them, as they had been so mean to me. I felt the anger ripping right through my body and I could barely contain it as I thought about what they’d said, and how they’d treated me.

As the dream progressed (in which I wasn’t aware I was dreaming) I met up with some friends and talked to them about the mean person. They too became upset for me and agreed the person had been horrible. We joined forces and heatedly barrelled on about how nice I am and questioning, how could someone possibly be so mean to me? 

I felt justified in my anger. 

Then my perspective panned outward, like in a movie where it was zoomed in and then the camera starts moving backwards further and further. I shifted from being in the dream to looking down on myself laying asleep on the bed.

I saw myself sleeping and no doubt, still dreaming. And then, I saw tall beings all around the bed, looking down on me as I slept, in a loving and caring manner. The perspective continued to pan backward, until I caught a glimpse of the whole world.

I saw the universe and in it, I was the only one asleep. 

There were other beings but they were all awake and they were tending to me – the single, solitary sleeper. I realised that I’d been imagining all of the people in the dream scenario.

I’d made up the mean person and then persisted on being angry at them, even going as far as talking about them behind their back and I’d joined forces with other imaginary people to band together in our hate… But it was all me. Just me. I was the only one asleep, and I’d made it all up. 

And these days, that’s all I really know for sure, that there’s a possibility the same scenario is playing out here. I know our lives feel real and hurt sometimes, and even horrific things happen, but they also do in dreams too. And they feel very real until we ‘wake up’. But I tell you, I’m quite keen to wake up again and that time, let it be for real.

With love from one sleepy being,

Sharon

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I am a holistic hypnotherapist and Healing Practitioner, and work with people one-on-one from my clinic in Wellington, New Zealand as well as online anywhere in the world over Skype. I also teach meditation classes and facilitate self development workshops.