There Is No Going Back
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We seem to be letting go of the pre-conceived notions of what it means to embody spirit. It’s not about perfecting our human self in order to have spirit in our body and our life.
And to the human, it’s both mind-blowing, and it’s a great relief.
This lifetime has been a long time coming. It’s not new to us. We knew of this lifetime a very long time ago, for many of us back around the time of Jesus, or Yeshua.
But meanwhile, going through this embodied enlightenment process can make us feel pretty beat up physically and emotionally. Some days we feel like, will this ever end? The unlayering. The emotional or physical trauma. And at other times we feel that incredible connection with our soul in a way we have never felt before. Even if it’s for a few moments here and there.
We understand that life serves us with the things we desire but not from a place of trying to figure it out from our minds. In fact we’re realizing that the hardest part of this whole process is letting the mind off the hook for being responsible for our lives. That’s a pretty big one isn’t it? It goes against everything we have been about for eons of time.
At this point none of us here are looking for a panacea. I don’t think we’re even looking for answers. Many of us right now are just recognizing the enormity of this undertaking.
But then we wanted to accomplish in one lifetime what it would normally take several lifetimes to accomplish. Did we bite it off more than we can chew? It can certainly feel that way.
But then, pioneers of great change don’t dive in to the New with a road map or blueprint. As souls they are not making laundry lists of why something won’t work. And really, they are not even interested in the success/failure thing that humans like to dangle in front of themselves and others.
There are many who have said the solar eclipse energies have tossed them around emotionally, bringing up old issues from the past. Maybe so, maybe to make a final clearing on some of those old emotions.
BLAME IT ON RIO
But once again we just can’t continue allowing outside circumstances, even the celestial events to dictate how we want to feel. Because if it’s not a solar eclipse, it will be terrorism breaking out somewhere in the world. Or our family going into their drama. Or our bodies displaying more symptoms. All these things are very real, and it is hard not to feel affected by them. Absolutely. And one can reach a point where they say, I have had enough. I no longer want to endure this experience here. And that is absolutely honored if that point comes in a being’s life.
But those feelings are not the feelings of the soul. They are the mind crying out and saying it’s damned tired of trying to create our life for us. It’s saying that it wants out. Not necessarily off the planet, but out of the driver’s seat.
But those of us here have come so far. We have been through the dark night of the soul. And for the most part, we know the worst is behind us. For many of us right now the worst thing is the boredom. And the boredom comes from the mind still thinking it has to be at the head of our life. And it just doesn’t want to do it anymore. It does not want to be responsible for our life. Nor should it be.
BEYOND WORDS
So really, how much is there left to say in words about this embodied enlightenment? It may feel as if all the messages begin to sound alike after awhile. But really it isn’t so much the words as it is connecting with each other energetically. It’s acknowledging that we’re not alone in this process. It’s the camaraderie that keeps us from feeling that we’re doing this all by ourselves.
Because we are not.
Yes there is tiredness. There’s a sense of disappointment at times. Wondering how long this process is going to take before there is a feeling of really moving forward. While it is true that we are creating a distinct reality along-side the 3-D reality, because we can all feel that reality, it is also true that we still are dealing with the 3-D world. And that world is beginning to seem more and more removed from who we are.
We can see so clearly how most of humanity is stuck. They are stuck in their minds. And they are trying to get out of their minds by doing things that engage the mind even more. Talk about a vicious cycle.
NUN TOO SOON
In previous lives many of us sequestered ourselves in monasteries or convents where we could safely connect with god. We kept the outside world at bay. But it wasn’t very satisfying because it was a limited expression of who we were. We thought we had to give up worldly joys in order to be accepted by God. We saw those worldly, bodily joys as distractions.
But for us on the forefront, we have agreed to be here in this world as it is, and we wanted to walk around as our ascended selves. We wanted to be the role models of a human who embodied their own soul on such a deep and visceral and sensual level. We felt that would bring us the most joy.
And it does. We get to have the best of all worlds. Being here in a clear and awake state and enjoying all of the sensual pleasures of the physical body and this environment.
But maybe we did not anticipate the challenges involved. Having to endure the transformation of bodies that are not even ours but belong to our ancestors. And having to deal with a world that is still pretty fast asleep. Or at best is just beginning to wake up.
So maybe there is still more purging that needs to be done, and maybe the celestial events are triggering them. But we have learned one important rule of thumb. And that is, no matter the origin of the emotions or the physical conditions that come up, it’s not our job to wrestle with them. And if they are not in alignment with how we want to feel….how our soul already feels….they are not ours.
Whether they are from a previous life, or an aspect of ourselves or whatever.
For the most part we have faced our deepest fears and we recognize them for the illusions that they are. One of those fears being that if we are truly our full selves here in this 3-D environment, we will be vulnerable once again to the world not appreciating us. We do not have the protection of monastery walls anymore. And no doubt in other lifetimes we were not respected or worse for being our embodied selves.
We may wonder about our friends and family, for some of us what’s left of them…how will they respond to who we are becoming? If we keep walking away from people, jobs, situations, what will happen to us?
If we show up with spirit blazing through our eyes, how will we been seen by the grocery clerk, or the rest of those we deal with on a daily basis? Our mind is not quite convinced that our soul has our back, and that in fact this new place we are embodying is a safe space.
It is. As we become more and more in alignment with who we are, we begin to see proof that life serves us, how could it not?
But our mind has written a laundry list of reasons why we should be hesitant to be fully ourselves in this environment. But there is one compelling reason why we want to be fully ourselves. We have tasted it. And once you have tasted it……even if you don’t know exactly where it all leads….there is no going back.
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