A While Ago A Dear Friend And I Imbibed In Some Cannabis.  I Should Have Known Better.  My Track Record With The Weed Has Not Been Great.  I End Up With Some Not So Nice Side Effects.  It’s Not That The Stuff Wasn’t Quality, Or That I Did Too Much Necessarily.  I’m Just Not A Good Candidate For Ingesting It.

For me personally, it’s a wash.  There’s just too much physical and mental discomfort for the payoff, of feeling high.

And, since I can get to those states of bliss on my own, without side effects, why bother?

Well, because sometimes it feels like those states of peace and bliss are elusive.

But while under the influence the other day, I got to that really panic stricken, paranoia place.  And my dear friend tried to calm me down, and asked me what my biggest fear was in that moment?

I said, it was losing my mind.

That surprised me.  Yet, it’s the most common fear associated with cannabis paranoia, and also with this whole transformation process.

With cannabis, it’s not so gentle a process.  It can yank the mind out of its comfort zone abruptly, and create a sense of losing total control.

With the natural transformation process, our soul is guiding our mind in a more gradual way, not giving it more than it can handle at any one time.

But my mind did not feel safe.  It was in such new territory.  

My intent was to relax my mind, and it did for awhile, but the full on panic that followed was not worth the ride.

I remember saying, as I did a couple of time previously when I imbibed, “I can’t wait to get back to my normal neurotic self.”  At least there I know my demons.

At least there I was in my comfort zone.

But I’m glad it happened, because it gave me a whole new appreciation of why this transformation needs to be gradual.  Not just the body, but the mind needs time to adjust and adapt to a whole new perspective on life.

On our Soul’s perspective.

Having said that, there have been ascended masters who chose the abrupt way, and that’s why most of them left the planet after their enlightenment.

They were not prepared to embody spirit, mentally or physically.

So they blew up.  They left.  Some unceremoniously.

I have written two posts on the subject of cannabis and enlightenment, so I won’t go into depth, but suffice it to say that there are no shortcuts to enlightenment and realization.

And this process is tailored perfectly for each of us, by our very capable and wise soul.  There are energies that need to be released, and transformed, and that does take time.

The mind is already freaking out because it can no longer control things like before.   It is slowly acquiescing to our heart and soul presence.  

Our Soul know better then to jolt the human beyond what he or she can handle.  In its unconditional love for us, it will not assert itself into our experience uninvited.

Yes, we opened the door a while ago, and the light of our soul came in and began highlighting and releasing stuck energies on our behalf.  It was and continues to be very uncomfortable, but it’s not going to push us into a state of insanity or mental breakdown.

Although it feels like that sometimes.

But this is for many of us the designated lifetime to embody spirit and bring together all of our other lifetimes, and all of our aspects.

So it’s going to be intense as we know.  For many of us, we wanted it to be a do or die.  This lifetime or not at all.

We chose the accelerated path.

But even so, our Soul is in charge for a reason.  She knows how to do all of the above.  She has the wisdom.  And she has the enlightened perspective.

If we became aware of our own soul’s realization too soon, we would most likely leave the planet.  

So it’s gradual, and it’s timed perfectly by our soul.  

And, of course our human impatience and frustration is noted.  And thank goodness we have one another to share that frustration with.  It’s no coincidence the internet technology was created at this time on the planet.

And have you noticed it’s getting easier and more affordable to use?  All by design.  

Everything happening in our life is purposeful.  It’s all for our realization.  All done at levels we the human need not understand.  

Let’s enjoy this final ride.  A ride of a lifetime.