Nothing says drama, trauma, pain and suffering like country music!

I had to stop binge-watching Nashville. Apparently, by season five, Rayna dies. I did not see that one coming. That’s just a little too traumatic for my liking. I felt like she was one of the characters that held the whole series together. I’m sure it gets interesting afterword and people rally, and they overcome the grief. But really, it’s just a little too dark for me. Kind of like Desperate Housewives was.

So I abandoned the show entirely.

It was riveting. Mesmerizing. I really got seduced and pulled in. Kind of like I used to with the news. It did not always leave me feeling uplifted. It was a good escape I guess. Something my mind could play in. But the question for myself at this point is, am I willing to continually re-traumatize myself and open up wounds just for the sake of entertainment?

Nashville was all about drama, trauma, pain and suffering and the art and music that emerged from that pain.

But, all of that is all about 3-D. It’s all about duality. It’s all about seeking something outside oneself in order to feel whole and complete.

I left that world. Most reading this did too.

But, it is so easy to get seduced back into that world. With people, entertainment, the news, and even our own limited and fearful thoughts.

Yes I feel a little sad about letting go of TV shows like Nashville and Desperate Housewives. But, this is for my own joy, and my own freedom. I will just have to find something else to entertain myself.

But saying goodbye to Rayna was like saying goodbye to that loving, strong and compassionate mother that I never had. I will miss her. But I do have her now don’t I? She’s right here. My own nurturing energy within me. And my own loving soul. It’s not a love based on conditions. It’s a love based on trust and mutual respect. That love will not feel painful for that reason.

It may go unrecognized for that reason. Human to human love is but a limited version, an anemic version of the true love of the soul.

Humans have a great capacity for love, but it will take some getting used to the love that is real. The soul will not assert itself in our life. She will not judge us. She will not rescue us.

But she has the greatest compassion for us. And as we release the drama and trauma from our energy field, our soul can merge with us much more easily.

And then our life reflects that back to us. Bringing us greater peace and joy.

So it is to our benefit to allow the feelings that come up, yes, but not identify with them. Know that those heavy emotions are manufactured by our mind. And they do not replace the true feelings of our sovereign heart and soul.

It’s good to cry, and to get angry. To purge stuck energies is always good for us. The trick is to understand that those emotions are not representative of who we really are.

As I watch TV dramas like Nashville, I see how people keep repeating the same patterns, the same stories over and over, with whoever they happen to be with.

The songs are beautiful, but they are all about the pain of unrequited love, in one form or another. Whether it’s the love from a parent, a friend or a mate. And what could be more about pain and suffering and unrequited love than country music?

Actually, if you take any love song, and look at it from a broader perspective, it’s actually a song about the yearning of the human to reunite with the soul.  We sing about missing the soul, about being angry at the soul for abandoning us, or what we perceived as abandonment.

We sing about how the soul makes us happy, and how we couldn’t imagine life without it.  About how the soul completes us.

GOODBYE DRAMA

In the TV drama, Nashville, the stories of each character are layered, and beautiful in their own way.  But they are just stories.

I have said this so many times, but I need to keep saying it, because it’s true and it’s amazing. Those of us who have awakened, and have moved into taking responsibility as creator-gods…..we are letting go of our stories.

We have let go of looking for love in all the wrong places, and by wrong places, I mean anywhere but within ourselves.

We have let go of processing energies for others. Because where we are, we know that no longer serves us or anyone else.

Consequently we may feel emptied out, and kind of passionless. We want to feel more consistently that joy of our Soul-self. But part of the problem is we (our minds) expect to feel like we did in the dualistic system, where love was tied into pain and suffering.

In that system, we believed that if we didn’t feel jealous or heartbroken if our love strayed from us or left us, then it wasn’t true love.

If we didn’t feel worried or sympathetic toward those close to us, we thought we didn’t love them enough.  Love and pain were inexorably tied together.

I’m not saying that we want to feel all of that trauma anymore. But it’s good to point out that the love we are going to be experiencing from our Greater Self could go undetected by our mind. Because the mind has been conditioned to experience love as something that can be given and taken away by someone or something outside of self.

Many of us have been feeling that true love from our soul, even if it seems fleeting, and it’s indescribable. It’s full and even a bit scary. There is no price to pay for it.  No having to earn it. There is no pain, and there are no strings attached.

In 3D relationships I don’t know how many times I heard “Don’t worry. There’s no strings attached.” And, there always were.

The love we experienced in duality left us feeling like we couldn’t trust it.  It was volatile.  Fragile.  Undependable.  We spent so much time and energy trying to find it, and hold onto it.  Compromising our freedom for it.

Many say they miss the passion they felt in their former life, the life they left behind.  But the passion was more a product of the theatre of the mind.

So, let’s not confuse conflict and chaos with true feelings, or mistake lack of conflict with lack of love.

Unfortunately that real love from our soul to our human self does not make for good TV drama, but it sure makes for a darn good life.