One of the most important questions that you can ask yourself on your spiritual journey and especially during this tumultuous times is “Is this mine?”.

This was hit home to me in an incredible but painful lesson. I posted an article on Facebook that I didn’t think would be controversial but boy was I wrong. I posted the article before I got off the computer for the day around 3 pm. I have deleted Facebook from my phone as I found it too tempting to check out and mindlessly scroll, so I didn’t check to see the comments.

Around 5 pm that day I was BEYOND cranky. Completely uncomfortable in my own skin. My husband asked me what was wrong and I said that it must be the energy and a meditation and nap were in order. Later that evening my husband was on Facebook and informed that I had really made someone upset by the article I posted. I then hopped on to see that this person was completely triggered which surprised me and also bothered me as I didn’t understand it.

As I went to sleep that night, an image of the person that commented floated into my mind. At first she was light and sparkly and then she turned into something dark that projected major negative energy towards me. I dismissed the image and chided myself that just because someone is mad at me or disagrees with me, it doesn’t mean that they are psychically attacking me or that they are dark.

I woke the next morning with an unbelievable headache. I assumed it was due to the changes that we are going through which can include tremendous cranial pressure. As the day went on the headache didn’t subside and neither did the crankiness. I went onto Facebook and when I saw another’s good news or accomplishment instead of being happy for them like I normally would, I felt envious and even disgusted that someone had something I wanted. The energy was very much like “Why does she have that? I deserve it, not her!”. It was absolutely awful. I sat in observation of it and thought that I was seeing a layer to my shadow, something that I needed to dig into and heal. Not once did I stop and ask “Is this mine?”

By mid-day my head was still pounding, I felt nauseous and my tailbone was burning.  I had an appointment scheduled that afternoon with cranial-sacral but I really knew I needed assistance as soon as possible. My head was hurting so bad that I didn’t feel that I could connect in and get answers. I contacted a friend that I had trained with and told her what was taking place physically and she texted immediately saying “Who did you piss off?!? There is a woman in your field and she is sending you nasty energy!” I gave her 4 names and the name my friend chose was the one that had gotten quite upset with me on social media. I was honestly shocked and annoyed that I didn’t heed the warning I was given as I drifted off to sleep the night before. She was able to assist me some, easing the headache, but not the tailbone burning.

I went to my magical cranial sacral practitioner and explained what had taken place. She found that my root chakra was completely blocked and that my cerebral fluid was not working properly at all. As she was unwinding the block I heard so clearly “You assumed what you were feeling was yours, this invited it into your body so that it could take hold at very deep levels.”  Ah… there was the lesson.

Not once did I stop to ask if all that I was feeling was mine. Instead I took it in as mine to clear and heal. The reason I had not experienced jealousy to that degree prior is because it was never mine. This was a huge AH HA! moment for me as I know so many of us on the spiritual journey are doing the hard work, digging in, and healing our layers. However, what if we are processing and clearing things that were not ours in the first place. We know that we cannot clear for another, it doesn’t work that way. I may clear energy from clients but I simultaneously share the pattern that allowed the energy in. Otherwise, discordant energy can be cleared, but it will return.

Clearing things that don’t belong to us only stops us from reaching our full potential. It keeps us running in circles, drains our energy and ensures that we are so busy that we don’t have the energy to embody all that we are. Looking at Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs shows us how being constantly stuck in the cycle of clearing keeps us from our own self-actualization.

Digging in to our shadow, clearing programing and beliefs is essential to our work on this journey. We have to see all of ourselves. It is a lot of work and so incredibly worth it. It’s a big job, one that doesn’t need to be made bigger by processing, clearing, and healing what is not ours.

The simple question “Is this mine?”, would have saved me a lot of mental, physical, and emotional pain. I have used this technique many times, even taught it, yet I obviously needed the reminder. This question can also be used to check in with your belief systems. Asking if a certain belief that you have always had is yours or if it was given to you by our world can help us to sort through programming.

The Council of Light has described this time period as the Great Shake-Up. We are being shook up individually and collectively. The pot has been stirred and debris are flying around.  We have to make sure that the only debris we are dealing with are our own. I hope that this message finds you well and not feeling too overwhelmed in the energies. Isn’t playing human fun?

Sending you all lots of love. Thank you to all that support and share this work.

Jenny Schiltz